I thought I was going to die… I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through. [The abortion] haunted me all my life.
In All Things Go, Minaj describes the experience. She believes that her aborted son is her younger brother ‘Caiah’s “little angel”:
My child with Aaron, would’ve have been sixteen, any minute
So in some ways I feel like ‘Caiah, is the both of them
It’s like he’s ‘Caiah’s little angel, looking over him
Minaj was in high school at the Manhattan performing arts high school LaGuardia when she became pregnant. The baby’s father was “an older guy from Queens”; Rolling Stone doesn’t divulge anything further. “It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice,” Minaj says. “I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child.”